I am feeling a bit lost tonight
I don’t feel like me and it’s been a long time since I have. I want to be well and remember what it’s like to think about anything else but ‘how will I feel today?’
I have lost confidence in so many aspects of my life and the zest for a giggle and fun is becoming hard to come by.
I fear I am not good enough and that people will get tired of asking after me or putting up with me.
I want my sparkle back and what makes me really me back!
No one really understands the way I feel at the moment and I am not sure I could explain it properly anyway.
The choices I need to make don’t feel like mine and I am just sick of being sick.
I want to be confident the person I see in the Mirror and be more than just another victim of Endo.
Hoping this is just a low mood and I will pull through some strength after a good nights sleep.
Just keep swimming