Well the last couple of days have shown me examples of how support groups can be both helpful and stifling.
On one group I found some ladies judgemental and harsh in their comments about another ladies wish to be able to have a hysterectomy. They were quick to tell her not to do it and throw negative comments at her choices.
I told the lady my plans and the respond and they all seems to go on the attack telling me to think long and hard about my choice and that this was not a cure.
I know full well that my choice is not a definite cure but every woman is different and how they suffer is different. How can they say that something that doesn’t work for people they know won’t work for anyone else.
I clearly explained my reasons for choosing ovary removal, and that it wasn’t a rash decision. This is my body, my choice and my future.
I fully appreciate the massive changes I am about to go through and the chances that this won’t be a forever cure. But it will stop my periods, my fear of my cycles, less pain and give me closure on this point of my life.
The other support group are full of ideas, and although there are ladies it hadn’t worked for there are the other 50% that say it’s the best thing they ever did.
My antibiotics are already kicking in and although my wee is almost illuminous i feel it working. (Normal side effect)
My sniffles are still coming and going. I feel so run down and poorly at times and others I feel ok. I am using my cold and flu guard, inhaler, vitamin c and zinc and drinking more fluids. Getting to bed early too.
As long as I am not blocked up or it goes to my chest I should be ok for surgery.
The night sweats were horrendous last night. I was cold one minute and dripping wet with sweat the next. Hot flushes are more regular too.
I have had the odd niggle on my left side which may be my ovary waking up or some light constipation.
Hoping to be able to have Friday pm off if I get all my work up to date so I can get some proper rest, pack a bag and tidy up everything etc
Pre-op tomorrow afternoon.